Raw Emotions: This Is What I Know

This is what I know: Life has a way of trying to keep you stuck. 2 steps ahead, 1 step back. I'm spontaneous, adventurous, try my dam hardest to be positive but my abusive ex never changes, no matter how many chances I've given him. There is no support or help from him ever. He allows his kids struggle. It breaks my heart. I love my kids to pieces but how can theyy ever understand the pressure I carry trying to hold things together? They can't and it's not their burden. I am grateful they are getting their education and no matter what they will never have to struggle once they have it. Sometimes I feel broken and today is one of those days. One day this too shall pass. Sure people can sympathize and feel bad, but no one can really understand the weight of someone else's burdens and pressures. I hope you all find a way out of any self limiting situations that are put upon you. Wishing you all light and love. Down today but I will come back with a revenge and those who think my honesty is too brutally honest then feel free to unfollow me. I hope my rawness helps other people who any be struggling. The best people are the one who have faced struggles and have become humble and nonjudgmental because of them. xo

I hope this helps even one person. Blogs, Instagram, FB should not be about the glossy 'fluff'...life is much more complicated and the raw emotions needs to be heard too. We need to use our pain to help others. Sending you light an love xoxox



Hello Loves,

Men. I’ve loved them. I tolerated them and I’ve hated them. They have made me laugh, they have made me cry. Some have created an intense longing in me, some I longed to get away from. They have broken my heart and they have repaired my heart. They have served their purpose and I am not of need of them any longer. I love myself enough now. 

Don't get me wrong, if the right love came my way I would be open to it. I just don't have any overwhelming desire to go searching for it. There is no feeling of desperation or overwhelming loneliness. I believe this comes with being single and really getting to know yourself. So many people are afraid of being alone that they never allow themselves a chance to get used to it. Being alone is actually a gift, it's a chance to allow yourself the opportunity to find out you are complete on your own. I related to the quote below and I'm sure there are those of you who will relate as well:

A serial monogamist, I found that at every turn I was constrained by issues of, well, maleness. There was a kind of inherent dominance that tipped the balance of power away from me. -KAREN RINALDI

Do you relate at all to Karen Rinaldi's quote? Have you ever felt that you lose yourself within the confines of a relationship? Read the quote below, I couldn't have said it better myself. If you are newly single why not take some time to focus on yourself? If the right person comes along, welcome it, but know you don't have to be in a relationship to survive. Life is just as beautiful and sweet for the single girl as it is for any couple.

"There’s so much more to life than finding someone who will want you, or being sad over someone who doesn’t. There’s a lot of wonderful time to be spent discovering yourself without hoping someone will fall in love with you along the way, and it doesn’t need to be painful or empty. You need to fill yourself up with love. Not anyone else. Become a whole being on your own. Go on adventures, fall asleep in the woods with friends, wander around the city at night, sit in a coffee shop on your own, write on bathroom stalls, leave notes in library books, dress up for yourself, give to others, smile a lot. Do all things with love, but don’t romanticize life like you can’t survive without it. Live for yourself and be happy on your own. It isn’t any less beautiful, I promise". -Emery Allen



6 Fun Collections To Start


Why not take a twist on traditional by starting a dinnerware collection in an unexpected shade?


Might as well put those empty wine bottles to use as candle holders...plus, you now have a built in excuse to open a bottle of wine...


If bubbly is more up your alley then display your corks in a clear vase or a Hurricane Vase with a candle insert

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A glass collection could really be fun to hunt down and makes a stunning display when grouped by color family


Mercury votives displayed on a silver tray look pretty at the holidays or year round to create a feminine vibe


Lanterns can be moved around the home and used outdoors as well to line walkways, or provide light for al fresco entertaining and cozy fire pit eves. 

 If you enjoy the thrill of the hunt then collecting could just be your next favorite pastime. Do you have any current collections?  xoxo



7 Reasons Why Farmhouse Kitchens Rock


No. 1: Barn Doors

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No. 2: Chalkboards

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No. 3: Fireplaces!!!


No. 4: Rustic Hood Fans


No. 5: Wood Beams


No. 6: Farmhouse Sinks


No. 7: Open Shelving

Wishing you all a wonderful day! Which kitchen is your favorite? If you could only choose 1 of these elements, which would you pick? I would most definitely go of the fireplace!! xoxo




So many pumpkins, so many uses...from seasonal displays, DIY candle holders and place settings, spruced up window boxes and sills...even Nutty Rice + Shredded Brussel Sprouts look lovelier when served in mini pumpkins...


A little inspiration for creating a warm, welcoming entryway that embraces the beauty of the season. Enjoy!


Last weekend a friend and I gathered around my Sister's fire pit and took in the crisp hint of Autumn in the evening air.  Fall is a magical season for me, it signals a new beginning to me even more so than New Years.  I think this belief stems from my childhood and the beginning of a new school year that always signified change. People talk about Summer love...for me it's always been October, there must be something in the air, other than blowing leaves, that makes my heart skip a beat for a new someone special.

I got to dreaming about the perfect bonfire/Autumnal soiree and thought you may enjoy some inspiration as well.


Pumpkin Pies and Apple Turnovers will be pleasantly devoured by guests and pair perfectly with a mug of Mulled Cider or glass of Wine. Don't forget to leave out some cozy throws in case your guests get chilly...

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I love bundling up in cozy scarves or wraps and fall boots! Target has some lovely scarves that can be worn as blanket scarves or simply draped over the shoulders...the best part they are only $20 so might as well get all of them...I give you permission, (can't take it with you, might as well look good).

Little touches take anything from ordinary to outstanding, (and of course the company you invite)!  Adding small details like pre-made S'mores, roasting nuts on a cast iron skillet, or providing your guests with small comforts, such as blankets to keep warm with, let's them know you went the extra mile to make them comfortable and that you are grateful for them in your life.  Add your favorite music and repeat every weekend.

Do you own or want to own a fire pit? What are your tips for a perfect cozy evening with loved ones?






This is my favorite house on the Vineyard. It may be my all-time favorite house ever. I didn't take this photo, but I have taken photos of this house during every season. I come across photos, like this one, on the web that confirm my suspicions that I am not the only being in love with this house. 

It has a big tire swing in the yard and I hope that there are Grandchildren filling the yard with laughter. The landscaping is immaculate and it makes me think the inside of the home is well cared for as well. This is a father-of-the-bride-movie sort of home. It holds very high expectations for me. I want it to belong to a close family whose members all love, support and accept one another. I want this beautiful home to provide what we all dream about within it's walls...unconditional love, family traditions, Sunday dinners, anniversaries celebrated, newborn children visiting with parents, holidays with singing and dancing...

I ask myself why is it so important that I see this house as a haven of protection and love? Too many of us are divorced, struggling, have lost our belief that marriage or long term relationships are practical - we no longer believe that the things we once believed in are a possibility for us. Although, I am comfortable with my new belief system and my family dynamics the way they are now, I like to think that other people still have an idealistic view and that the world that once was so important to me still exists for those who want it.

My heart can't bear the thought that this could be a home to alcoholism, hatred, divorce, illness, financial struggle, infidelity...I know it's silly, but I just want to believe that happiness and peace exists in such a beautiful place. Do you have a house that you love that you have put a story to? Where is it and what is the story you have given it?